The days following after my break up were a mix of emotions. I was holding onto the fact that Reggie and I would be able to work things out when he got back from break.I held on to every last bit of hope and got instant gratification every time I heard from him.
“A break up is the equivalent of somebody taking away your drug at the height of your addiction” -Matthew Hussey
A few days after I remember feeling like I was never going to move on, feeling completely at a loss of what to do. The world, my world, had felt like it had stopped spinning. All the plans and dreams that I had made for myself were gone in an instant.At this point I was one day away from finishing my finals and called my mom wanting to come home. I felt so broken and lost I just wanted to give up. Her advice was that I would get through it and had to keep going on with life and do things as normally as possible even though it would be hard. I thought to myself “how could I just keep going?”. It seemed like no one understood. I was grieving a huge loss. I had just lost my best friend and the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, but I knew my mom was right and with only one more day left in the semester I had to push through. I went to classes and was comforted by being back into my daily routine. My friends from class were so sweet in understanding what I was going through and giving me words of wisdom. Honestly this difficult time made me really realize how many great people that really care about me I have. I am so incredibly grateful for all the girls nights, long phone calls, and messages that helped me through this time. I had pushed through and finished yet another semester of school. The days following I put all my time into working two jobs, and letting that be a distraction. Finally Christmas came around and I spent a few much needed days at home. Reggie never came and talked to me and realized it was just time to let it go and move on. What better time with the new year right around the corner? New year, new begginnings. This would be the perfect time to refocus on myself and my goals. Flash forward to today. It has been a little over a month since my break up. I have had really bad days, and really good days. I’ve learned that life goes on and where I once thought I would never move on am quickly realizing I am getting over it a lot faster than I initially thought. I know it is not something I will get over just like that. It will take time. A broken heart should not be something taken lightly. If the greatest of all things is love, then losing that love is a big deal.2018 has already been a great year. A year for taking time for myself, trying new things, and meeting new people. I am thankful for my relationship and all that it has taught me. I experienced my first love and I as a person have learned and grown so much from it. I will cherish those memories for the rest of my life and a part of me will always love Reggie. I truly believe everything happens for a reason and I trust that God has a plan for me. For anyone that is going through a hard breakup, just know that things get better. You just have to take life into your own hands.